Ever since we decided to close the shop I've been in a whirl of anxiety, frustration, self doubt, self judgement and just mayhem in my mind. It was causing physical symptoms also. As in my last post, I was deciding that what was wrong with me is that I have no skills.
I now know that I do.
My skill though is letting people feel relaxed in my presence. I connect with people over chit chat. I create an enjoyable experience. You can't go to school for this skill.
I was so wrapped up in feeling lack that I couldn't just see what was good in my life. I couldn't let myself breathe for the fact I haven't found the perfect job yet.
I watched a video- recommended by chance on youtube. I decided to watch it. It really brought me back to what I believe and have been practicing for years. I'm not sure what pulled me away from it in the first place, but I knew it was wonderful to be back in that place.
I don't need to do anything. I don't need to search. I don't need to strive. I don't need to judge myself. I don't need to change anything. I don't need to plan, schedule or stress about what is next and how can I possibly and how much $ do I need.
It is all complete right now.
I'm thankful for the moment of clarity that reminded me that I am the universe. I am connected to all things and I will be ok one way or the other.
Freedom.
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