He is the best thing that I will have ever accomplished in my life. He is thoughtful, imaginative, talented and gives the best hugs. Yes, he has the normal teenage stuff- but he is awesome and I'm so proud of the person he is.
Even when he's not happy with me he's respectful. Here he is super bored because mom is having too much fun dancing at a wedding. I'm hoping I'm teaching how to be a good man. I'm hoping I'm teaching him how to respect women and how to have respect for himself.
He's so handsome, but of course he doesn't think he is. He's certain that no girl will ever find him attractive, but I know one day sooner than I'm ready for- he'll have a girlfriend.
He's goofy and he gets that from me. He can make the weirdest faces and yes, he gets that from me. He's sensitive and has almost too much empathy--- all from me.
I am so proud of this guy. He is the most amazing person. It's hard to see him be so down on himself and not have the confidence. I want to protect him and make everyone clear a path when he walks in the room. But, he's 15 now and I can't do that anymore.
I've been trying to separate myself from him bit by bit. It's hard to do! I have to remember and give him the respect he deserves by letting him live his own life. He deserves to go through this life knowing that his choices are his. He doesn't owe me anything. I'm hoping that he will want to spend time with me as we both grow older. I never want to be a chore or errand for him. I never want to make him feel that way.
I love that boy with all my heart and because of that I will do this for him. Let him go and be free.
Meanwhile though, until he's 18, I'll eat up allllll the attention I can get! ;)
Until next time.
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